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Friday, August 29, 2008

Merdeka Day is finally over! An end to conflict, stress, screaming at the boys to shut up and co-operate, swearing at the guys, feeling like smacking/slapping some of the girls and all that. Yesterday we had our performance. Claudia forgot to bring the RADIO and the CD in it. ==". Some of the guys keep saying "Brenda! We just forfeit la!" So I was damn pissed yesterday because of that. What do they know anyways? It's other people who does the work, who puts in the effort, not them. That's why forfeiting sounds so easy for them. =/

And to make things worse, on that day, got ONE particular guy PURPOSELY didn't come just because Elyssa scolded him as he wasn't co-operating. Cikgu Agien's pissed at him so she said the maximum amount of demerit she will give him is 10. I feel so sorry for Jet sometimes..He does minor things like fool around a little bit nia in class and he gets the same amount of demerit..The guys pick on him, he gets the demerits. Well, I'm telling you if you're reading it..if Jethro gets suspended and you all don't, well listen, you deserve to get suspended more than he deserves it. How could you do this to him? How would YOU feel if you were in his shoes?

Don't you even dare to say that I don't know his real "kuan"..Well whatever his real "kuan" maybe, I'm ABSOLUTELY sure it's not as bad as YOUR attitudes. Please,la..Even if you don't like him, just stop doing this to him la..Okay..The power of God will now interfere..Hmmm....

1) You know bullying/picking on your friend is a wrong thing. Wrong thing equals to a sin. A sin equals to a wrong-doing that God doesn't like.
2) No matter what religion you are, be it Christian or non-Christian, you still believe in a God right? So if you know what you're doing is not pleasing to your God, then why still do it?
3) Get a life cause' you don't have one. Why? If you have a life, you won't be doing all this stupid things, like bullying people you be song or stuff like that..so please la GET A DAMN LIFE!

Back to Merdeka...

In the end, Claudia finally got her radio and CD and it worked out pretty okay..BUT.. WE DIDN'T WIN. Okay, I feel happy that we all tried our best but also very disappointed. It's hard for Ely too. She cried. =(. I didn't but I feel like a failure too. It's like everyone's efforts lead to nothing in the end. But at least we all tried our best la. I know winning isn't everything but not winning anything gives you that kind of negative feeling about like..maybe it was my fault that the we didn't win or something..but anyways.. that's about all

Don't wanna talk about merdeka..2C you did great too! The judges are just biased! B.I.A.S.E.D..>=(..

4:41 PM

Hello everyone :D. I'm Brenda and I've been studying in Lodge International from 6/3/2009 :) ; before that I was in Lodge National and so many memorable things have happened while I was there, which you could read about in the 2008-early 2009 archives :D. I may seem to be a girl that's easy-going, friendly, always giving in but trust me, I have another side to me. A darker, angrier, scarier side of me which I keep inside. I am like a lidded bottle that opens up when emotions pour in and shuts them inside. I can't seem to find ways to release those emotions, so I am a very frustrated and angry kid. But I'm still nice (: