Aku mengeluh. Kenangan-kenangan yang amat manis, peristiwa-peristiwa yang telah berlaku beberapa bulan yang lalu tetap akan berada dalam mindaku serta sanubariku. Aku mula berfikir, "Anjakan paradigma yang ketara telah berlaku. Sesuatu keputusan yang telah saya buat. Tidak dapat aku berpatah balik lagi..."

Aku mula mengimbas kembali peristiwa-peristiwa yang satu persatu yang akan menjadi hanya sebuah kenangan yang indahsungguh. Pelbagai perasaan... pelbagai emosi yang telah aku rasa ketika setiap kejadian tersebut berlaku; gembira, sedih, masyhgul, pedih, bangga, malu, sakit juga menyumbang kepada kewujudan sesebuah kenangan yang syahdu.

Aku terasa kesedihan meresap ke dalam jiwaku. Timbul juga rasa rindu akan kejadian-kejadian yang telah berlaku. Rindu akan cabaran-cabaran yang telah kami harungi bersama. Setiap air mata yang membasahi pipi kami, setiap masa yang dipenuhi ketawaan kami terasa rindu akannya juga.

Ya...memang betul bahawa saya tidak menyesal berpindah ke sekolah yang baharu. Namun, banyak sangat kenangan yang terpaksa aku tinggalkan.

Aku memang sangat rindu akan kamu semua...

Teman-temanku,
Janganlah lupa akan aku,
Ingatlah peristiwa-peristiwa yang telah kami lalu
Bersama,
Dengan gandingan bahu yang erat...
Yang tidak akan terputus tak kira apa-apa yang akan berlaku...

Walaupun aku tidak berada dalam kelas yang sama,
Sekolah yang berbeza,
Tetap akan saya berbangga,
Akan kejayaan yang diperoleh dengan kerjasama kalian,
Akan semua cabaran yang telah kami berjaya harungi

Kadang-kadang, terdapat juga masa yang telah kami bertengkar,
Tapi akhirnya, kemarahan tetap akan reda dan diganti kemaafan
Serta kegembiraan.

Kawan-kawanku, berusahalah dengan gigih perkasa,
Menuju ke arah kecemerlangan!
Bekerjasama bagaikan aur dengan tebing,
Untuk mencapai keputusan yang baik dalam peperiksaan PMR.

Apabila keputusan diumumkan,
Akan saya pergi lihatnya.
Aku akan berasa gembira dan bangga.
Karena, setiap temanku akan berjaya mendapat 7A untuk PMR.

:)

Talking to Nick made me really happy tonight =D.

Even if I never knew him in person,

Or I've never seen him face to face,

Or we're MILES away from each other,

Or we'll have to wait 'til New Year '10 to see one another

Or we're 3 hours apart. [He's 3 hours ahead of the time here =p]

He is a really great person.

A really good friend.

Sometimes I wish he didn't go.

He said he's trying to stop swearing liaw after I ask him to. Good boy xDDD. lol.

After talking to him, I was like "Hiya...so late already...11.30 loh...wan go sleep"

Then I look at the clock at my desktop: 8.30 p.m

-.-". Oh ya I forgot he's 3 hours ahead. Seem like it was already 11.30 p.m.

So I went to take my shower. =p

Like halfway bathing, I felt something drop off me. Yea, off ME. And I saw the thing that dropped off me. It looked like tissue so I just ignored it and sprayed water at it so it would flow out into the drain.

But it wouldn't move.

So I kicked the 'tissue' and it didn't feel like tissue...then I only realized it was brown in colour.

Then I stoop down to take a closer look and you know what...it wasn't tissue you know...

It was a small LIZARD.

I am suffering the same disease as La. Slow reaction disease. 2 times this type of thing happen

First, I kick da corpse of the bird at my backyard. I thought it was a piece of wood. And I was kicking it here and der...and I even stepped up and down on it -.-". It was really hard o.o

Second, this stupid lizard my gosh, it was still alive!! And it was flailing about in the water. Thank God the water sweep it into the drain =). And I was so blur I thought it was tissue and kicked it here and there -________-". Erm..

After I got over the fact that I kicked a friggin lizard I started to think:

I am like a crab.

A crab is all hard outside but really soft inside...just like me.

I put on this happy-go-lucky attitude outside but inside it's different. =p

When people insult me and persecute me and look down on me and treat me like crap, I still smile like and I act like I don't care but inside each part of me is slowly falling apart.

But I always thought that it would heal by itself. All it took was time. =]

And yes, it did heal. But not completely.

Bagaikan peribahasa,

"Sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, akhirnya akan jatuh ke tanah juga"

No matter how strong I try to be, I will fall at least once.

No matter how many times I try not to cry, I will break down at least once.

No matter how many times I try to stray away from that metal, I will do it at least once.

No matter how many times I tell myself it's alright, at least once it will NOT be alright.

No matter how many people are there for me, I will still feel alone. At least once. =p

Dun call me an emo.
Dun call me a sadist.
Dun call me suicidal.
Dun call me crazy.
Dun call me stupid.
Dun call me depressed.

I'm just me.

Most importantly, dun JUDGE me.
Look at yourself in the mirror.
If you cannot find one single flaw in you, then go ahead an judge me.
But if you're not perfect and you know you aren't, then don't judge.
'Cause I don't need your advice.
And most importantly, I don't want your sympathy.
I don't want your pity.
I just want someone who cares.
Who will just shut up and listen.
Knows when to talk and when not to.
Just like Nick. =p

Thank you so much Nick! =D
For tonight.
Thank you for being the 'listener'
Thank you for listening to all my complains and all my crap,
When others would probably shut me out already.

^^ Thank you!!!

P/S: Thank you for trying not to swear also. You are a guai guai leng zai.

God Bless:
My Form 3 Friends for their PMR...to obtain 7As 100%
My M.A.F.I.A.S (B.E.M.E.L.K)
My Da, Er, San Jie, Milo Jie and James and Jacq Ko,
Jesmond...we brought God into Josh's life and we will bring God into more people's lives...
Josh Sim...You, me and Jesmond will continue to live in the salvation of God and spread his Word
Nick...for Interschool, his soon-to-come Interdivision, Music and Studies
Alan...for Interdivision and studies
Donovon...for Interdivision, Interschool Tennis and Studies
Kai Shin
Ameline and Amanda
Serra
Mica
Christie
Patrick...hope you don't eat bread everyday...=x
JASON =) amazing u have been.

and the all the others I have not mentioned...

Amen to you all...and may God Bless You all...

Goodbye Lodge National! =p

Hello International! (2nd week)

I'm lovin' it. ;)

So what I've promised, the new gals I've met and became friends with in International School:

[Not in alphabetical order]

MA MICAELA TALBAN! or in shorter form MICA! - Year 9A-ian. A member of ANAKASAM too. She has another name which Aw gave to her: Mohammad Talban. =D. Always get bullied by Alan, Ameline, Serra and Aw X). But she doesn't mind. She admits that's the way they have fun. LOL. But I feel sorry for her o.o...erm...she was the one who told me the place to put my bag on the first day ^^.

SERRA CHOI YEA EUN!...i tink O.O - SERRA. Year 9A-ian. erm...I don't really know much about her. I think she's a kind of quiet type of person la. She doesn't talk a lot...erm...Oh ya! A member of ANAKASAM also. From what I see, she is very hardworking and smart too. She is number one in class, I heard. =D. So smart!!! ><.

SYAFIQAH! - Year 9B-ian. the used-to-be only gal in CiliPadi before I joined the group. =). Very nice and very sweet. =]. She has a great voice!!! OMGOODNESS. When I heard her sing, my mouth was like hanging open most of the time...yea...she doesn't like boys who flirt with girls. She's a straightforward person, when she doesn't like someone's attitude/think it's wrong, she'll just stand up and tell that person to his/her face. X)

MEHER KNIGHT! - Year 8A-ian. Erm...it was kind of random....because she was looking for Syafiqah and Syafiqah and Serena were like, "Ey listen to her (me) sing!" And I was like just dun care dun care then I continue singing then I felt really weird so I stopped and laugh and she laughed too. So I hope we can be better friends after the hols! ^^

ICELYNNE YEO! - Year 8A-ian. First of all, it is quite insulting that they spelt her name as "Jocelynne" in the 2008's Lodge School Magazine. -.-". Erm I think she is really really nice seriously. I can see what he sees in her ;). Pretty inside and outside ^^. She saw me eating alone on Solat Jumaat and she asked me to join her.

Me: Nevermind la....*laughs* it's okay...^^

Ice: Please!! Sit with us la!! You look so lonely

So I go sit wit her and Mark and Jacq =p.

I think that's about all....erm....the NEW ones...the ones that never studied in National or wad...so yea.

=]

It has been 1 week and 5 days since I've left National.

Although I see my friends nearly everyday since I left, I still miss them TERRIBLY. =(

That's why I see them everyday ^^. Makes sense rite?

I love my life at International. Seriously.

The only things I miss at National are my friends, teachers and the facilities.

Other than that, life has never been so sweet. ;)

I met many new people that are really nice at Inter.

Let's start wit da boys:

ANGELO! - Year 9B-ian. Has the Canadian 'Ang Mo' accent. Dark-skinned. Walks with me nearly everyday to National =]. Carries my bag EVERYTIME and wouldn't allow me to even touch it. =.=" (but sweet though)

Angelo: Bag.

Me: No. *moments later* Nah, you carry this la! *passes him my bottle*

Angelo: *takes the bottle*

*Passes the bridge with the river below it =p*

Angelo: Pass me the bag or I'll drop the bottle.

So, yea -.-

AARON LIM JIA JUN! - Year 9A-ian. Shouted "Happy Holidays Kids!" to Angelo and I just now, while we were walking past Unishop. Sounds like he's having sex when he arm-wrestled with Jacq (and lost.) -.-. Oh yeah, he lost to me too =.=". I mean, I lost to every boy except him. KIK! And you know what? I asked him to flex today at DT Class. Oh yeah, DT is Design & Technology. It's something like KH, boys and gals combined. Doing patchwork now. I have no idea how to do it. Seriously. Oh ya! And when he flexed, DAMMMNN! His muscles pretty big oh! Hard summore. He says he works out by lifting weights. Jacq says he has muscles but he doesn't know how to use them properly. =p.

ALAN THEN! - Year 9A-ian. A member of ANAKASAM.Got to know a little bit of him when he followed Ameline to sit wit me during Art Class on Monday. I found him to be quite SURPRISING. I mean, my opinion of Alan when I was still at National was he was hao lian, because you know I didn't know him and he just like I dunno la. But when I talked to him, he is actually a nice guy. He's not hao lian too. He doesn't show off his running abilities. =p. He's a pretty quiet guy and I expected him to be those kind of guy you know, the ones with the loud voices and all that, but nope. Not at all. He's nice la. =]. So people who think Alan is hao lian, re-think it! He's NOT.

AW TZE YUN! - Year 9A-ian. A member of ANAKASAM also. Scared the heck out of me with his lifelessness yesterday (12/3/09). -.-". We had 2 hours FREE PERIOD for Science! (I got 52/80 for my test. T.T. So lousy hor? =( ), and he slept on the floor the whole time. =.=. And at the 2:20 break, he was like hunched at the corner of the door leading out to the basketball court. O.O. I'm just happy he's fine today ^^. He is a very nice guy. He reminds me SO MUCH OF JLOH. The way he talks. XD. Haih.....Jonathan Loh Chuan Zheng WE MISS YOU!!!

EDDY YOON! - Year 9A-ian. Okay, I don't know if it's Yoon or Voon but yea. This pro guy at badminton. -.-". Teamed up wit Ms. Sharon (Music Teacher), to play against Jason and Amy. Their team won by the way. WAH...Ms. Sharon so good oh. -.-". It's just weird...to see a teacher being pro at sports. No offence to the teachers out there but...you know, -.-" I thought teachers were to caught up with their work to be able to practice their abilities in sports. O.O. Eddy is super smart! He got highest for Science I think. By the way, all tests are SUBJECTIVE. History, Science...yea. He got 76/80. OMGOODNESS GRACIOUS ME. This guy is super sweet too. During my first few days of Math lesson, he got scolded because of me =(. I'm sorry Eddy!!!

One of the reasons was when I brought the wrong book up. Since all my books are photocopied, I brought Science instead, so when teacher scolded me, Eddy was like:

Eddy: Her books are photocopy ma.

And teacher went on about something like going to an airport to catch a flight and suppose to show your photocopy passport and bringing something else instead.

AND she scolded him for not borrowing ME his book and sharing it wit Min Hyuk since I brought the wrong book. WTHECK?!

I'M SO SORRY EDDY! T.T

GABRIEL QUEK! - Haha. =]. Gabriel. One of the most matured =p of Year 9. He's from 9B and we are in the same English Class. (First Language). He is pro Dota-er. Erm...he goes to TMC. =p. I was asked by Mr. Peter to join his group for English. (We were assigned to group for group projects). So, the group consisted of Syafiqah, Gabriel, Fernan, Aw Tze Yun, Ibrahim (Bra ^^) and me. =]. He's the Captain of the Rugby Club. =D. He has a immense level of creativity. We were asked to do a twist to the ending of a fairy tale. So we chose Little Red Riding Hood. It ended like this:

"Little Red Riding Hood then swung the wolf around and around the room. "Oh, thank you so much, Mr. Wolf! I've been wanting to get rid of that old hag for so long now!" And she gave the wolf a big hug."

KIK. Then it went something like Little Red Riding Hood asking the wolf about the cupcake and the wolf said he ate it and Little Red Riding Hood was like "Shit."

=p. The cupcake was POISONED as LRRH wanted to kill her old hag grandmama. ^^ BUT sadly the wolf ate it, so you know what happened RIGHT AT THE END, don't you? =)

HIGA MAKOTO! - The Japanese guy in Year 9A! XD. His first name is actually Makoto, but Christie (Christie Goh from National) told me that in Japan, they put the surname first. If I'm not wrong Makoto is the Japanese version of the name Mark. I saw the 'Mark' keychain on his pencilbox...so yea. This guy is really good at dancing yea. Ummm....he's really nice to me (so far...lol) but I've seen him when he gets slightly pissed. Yea...I'm a peacemaker sort of person (people who know me should know this) and...if he were to get angry, I would always try to find a way to cool him down ^^. He loves to draw. And he draws well too. He and Christie drew this Apam-man (or izzit Apangman? lol..sorry don't know the spelling) thing that is so cute! I call him Tau Sar Pau ^^ since Apam-man/Apangman is a red bean cartoon =D. OH! According to what Wilson told me it's APANMAN! XD. Erm some quite-old-JPG anime character. Erm...Anpan is Red Bean Bun. XDDD. I like to eat ANPAN!

Hyun Soo - Studies in Year 9A too ^^. Okay the reason why I didn't put his name in big or put a "!" behind his name is because I don't really well...know him well yet. This guy is SUPER RETARDED. LOL. You should see him, Darren and Jacq at Math time. Jacq/Darren would start it first by slapping his face and then they would start slapping each other like gals. ^^. He likes to wrap things around his head too -.- (e.g: my hairband, bandanas...) and he has that "-.-" look. HAHA. Always get bullied. To watch his retardity is so erm...priceless XD.

IBRAHIM! - Also known as the Bra. =D. In Year 9B. Same English Class. Of Pakitanese-Afghanistanese-bla bla and bla bla-nese heritage. -.-". Too many la. Cannot remember. He can do the Matrix really well. O.O. Jia Jun failed terribly. -.-. Same group in English. CILI PADI. ^^. Erm...likes violent movies. HIGH FIVE! XD. I dun really know him yet, but he's a nice guy too! ^^

JACQUES OMG-I-FORGOT-YOUR-SURNAME-LOL - Year 9A-ian. Really funny! XD. He and Darren would always bully Hyun Soo. It all starts wit a slap on the cheek. Then they slap each other with their hands. -.-. I just found out he's religious today. =O. OMGOSH. So unexpected from a hyper guy like him. Who never preaches the Word or sumthin. Until when we attended ISCF at Solat Jumaat. THEN he started saying like "Read Galatians...it's a good book" -.-. For those of you who dunno what Galatians is, it's a book from the Bible. If I'm not wrong it's after Romans (or is it Corinthians...) ROMANS I think la...

JASON LEE! - Year 9B-ian. OMGOSH. This guy is SUPER CUTE! He says his nickname is 'Peanut' cos' he's like tiny and short. He is 13 this year. So that proves he's a genius cos' he's thirteen and he's in Year 9. -.-". Erm...Serra, Jane and Angelo are also 13 and in Year 9. He's really caring actually. His paikia-ish manner reminds me of Joel "Dumpling" Tan during Form 1! *when he was still short*. He like to bully the Korean gals =p. He's Korean btw. He like to trick me. -.-". He go say he Chinese at first. Then I say something that made me sound like I really thought he was Malaysian-Chinese, and he looked at me with this shocked expression and said "I'm Korean la!" Lol. He's just like Joel la, come to think of it. Both treat me nice. Both dun bully me but bully other people. Both are just...haih. Dunno la. See! I miss my Dumpling Tan T.T

LEE MIN HYUK! - Year 9A-ian. He reminds me of a father. Just this gentle and friendly personality. He's super good at Math =D. He doesn't bully girls. =). He taught me how to say 'hello' in Korean. ANYONG! XD. Oh yeah, I asked him what hello was in Korean and Eddy & Hyun Soo were like saying cb in Korean instead -.-". Min Hyuk was like nono! that's cb! Don't listen to them! LOL. And he say he suck in badminton. Then Wednesday we go Family Club. My gosh, if he suck I'm crap ar. -________-". This guy is too nice la. HAIH.

MARK SU! - Year 8A-ian. When Ice invited me to sit wit her during lunch, he was also eating at the same table so I started talking to him. He has a REALLY CONTAGIOUS laughter. Something like Chung Yee's but Chung Yee wan more retarded ^^. He was laughing because I told him that actually, if you cut the scrotum, the testis will drop out. And he was like...he laughed 'til he choked but I was mostly staring at him wit da "O.O" look, 'cause I'm a friggin' open-minded person and I dun really see the PENIS funny. ^^. Well in primary school I did. Everytime our Math tuition teacher said "pennies" me and Tracy would start laughing and laughing. Mark goes to ISCF for Solat Jumaat so I followed the whole group of them: Mark, Ice, Jacq, to ISCF ^^.

I will update on the new gal frens I made and dem...the teachers too! Stay tuned.

P.S: Pretty tired already. =p. Erm...I feel like I left a few people's name out...but I'll think it over again...erm....I have to do my book review now. I am going to lose my Malaysian 'Haiyas' and 'Haiyos' and 'ah' and 'oh'. The people there don't slang that much. =p.

P.P.S: OH YA! There's this Korean guy in Year 8 I didn't really catch his name but OMGOSH. He reminds me of................AARON CHIENG! OMGOSH!OMGOSH!OMGOSH! I MISS YOU LA AARON! MY BOYFRIEND ARH! LOL!!!!!!!!! =.="". That Korean guy usually brings his guitar to jam. He's pretty good at it. His attitude about like Aaron. Look abit like him oso. My gosh!!! WHY DOES SO MANY INTER STUDENTS REMIND ME OF NATIONAL STUDENTS?! =(